SECOND Thanksgiving alone

This is not my first but second thanksgiving alone, I choose to be alone these past 2 thanks givings because I will not be around people who don't genuinely want me around them. Things with my brother are still not fixed, my dad went to his families house and invited me but I wanted to stay home because of personal issues with that side of my family. My mom's side of my family is really weird, weird in the way that they are horrible at showing love and compassion to each other. I'm still depressed over my trip in Europe that didn't go the way I wanted it to with my current boyfriend Rory. Things just seem to not be going my way, I've broken down on the phone to him and he didn't even care, I could tell by his face. I'm going to start writing again, because I need somewhere to jab all my thoughts down.