These past 2 weeks have been really great for me, searching for a job, crossing my fingers that I hopefully get this one at Dish. My PTSD, Depression and Anxiety is under control, it's a battle everyday and I will be the winner, I've started working out a lot more, eating a little healthier and drinking tons of water. I've realized that it's when you get knocked down and you continue to fight even if you feel like giving up shows strength and resilience. Loving yourself is the best gift you can give yourself, I won't EVER again depend on anyone's love to make me feel like I'm worth something because I know I am worthy of the world.
I look at my phone eager hoping to see a text showing me he cares. The saying "Nobody is ever to busy", has always held true to this day and in these instances it holds true still. My subconscious knows that he could send me a text but doesn't, why I ask myself? Could it be because he is waiting for a text from me or is it because it is to busy being distracted by his surroundings. The first one is what I'm hoping for, but if I do text him it's another waiting game that I don't want to play, seeing the 'delivered' text under my message shows me that the message has been delivered to his phone and he has received the notification for the text. Eagerly waiting for him to reply I finally get the text, mind easing the text is I realize that it has been 5 hours. Not a long time most would say, but when myself replies within an hour usually it makes me feel unimportant. It's become second nature to cross check randomly to see if he has been active on Facebook as he has not yet replied, a simple slide to the left can reveal everyone I have most social interactions with on Facebook and he happens to be one of those people who was active 10 minutes ago.
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Jared ValdezMy legacy will speak for itself. Here I leave my thoughts on the journey. Take this as my digital imprint on society and my life story said in words. Archives
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