We need to build on this broken wall of ours, if we want to have a healthy relationship that will last and be strong in the long term, honesty and personal integrity MUST and I repeat MUST become the foundation of this relationship. Without it we won't have anything but an empty void, it will be ugly as we’eve already seen it get. My faults are clear, I continue doing things that are NOT OKAY and I am now sincerely saying sorry from the bottom of my heart that I continue to talk to people from the past, I saw you cry over it today and I did not know it hurt you that much it will NOT happen again and I promise you that.
First off, I would like to tell you how much you mean to me. My life started revolving around you and that is a good and bad thing, you became my main source of happiness and that is another thing that is good and bad. The fact that i'm learning to love another person besides myself is an amazing experience and I am thankful for that. You're such an amazingly bright individual, your passion for your education is something that I admire. The way you show love to me is something I love but we both can work on doing way better, we clearly are in a serious relationship and should treat it as such. We should both learn what's not OKAY and what's OKAY because what we think is small to the other person could be something totally bigger in the other person's head. A really good example is people I used to talk to I thought it wasn't a big deal but actually it was. After 10 months you would think we would have the majority of them already down but I guess not and that’s something we BOTH have to do some major work on. My love for you is clear as day, I truly love you from the bottom of my heart Rory. You have grown to become someone that has a special place in my heart, we both have so much to work on. I needed a friendly hand that would pull me out of the hole I was in and you did just that, you were my night at shining armor. The love I have for you is beyond what I thought I was capable of loving anyone. We hurt each other so much and it kills me every time when I realize I've hurt you, that's another HUGE thing I think you should work on is expressing your feelings in a more emotional way to me, crying does not mean you're weak, it means you are human. I've only seen you cry a select few times during our relationship and I feel like that is really unhealthy. You are my world Rory, it might not seem like it but really you are. You are always on my mind, you bring me so much happiness, you are my best friend and someone I really admire, every time you question us I want you to look back at this letter and your answer will be in it every time. |
Jared ValdezMy legacy will speak for itself. Here I leave my thoughts on the journey. Take this as my digital imprint on society and my life story said in words. Archives
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