My First

Do you remember your first? the first person you fell in love with. Someone you opened up to and shared your darkest secrets with. The first person you actually was afraid of losing. Someone who helped you come out of the closet to your family and was there for you. Someone who you shared memories with and you wouldn't change it for the world. 

Recently I got out of a 4 month long relationship, with someone who I won't ever forget. His name was Rory, we meet at a dinner, the smile on his face made me want to get to know this person. Someone who looks so content with life and so happy and may I mention really attractive. This guy I wanted to get to know who he was so I found him on Facebook and messaged him. The un-responded friend request from me to him was still un-accepted. Curious why, I messaged him again and he finally gave me the time of day and I found out why, it's because I had sex with his friend. This made me feel like shit, not only did I like this guy but I had sex with one of his good friends. The night me and his friend had sex it all just happened so quick, I was drunk and was just in the mood, keep in mind their was 3 of us in this bed but only 2 of us had sex. After this all happened Rory finally decided to give me a chance. This was my chance to finally let him know who I am. 

We finally decided to hangout and we hit it off but I guess I was to late, he had found him a boyfriend. The fact that he had found him a boyfriend made me have so many mixed emotions. We stopped talking after I found out he was in a relationship with someone. I was snooping on his Facebook and found out he was finally single. This was my chance, I finally can go after the guy I've been wanting so bad all these months. 

Me and him started hanging out every few day's, then one night we were in his car. He looked a bit nervous and that made me nervous, I was so confused on what was going on. Then something in my head clicked, hes trying to ask me out. Me being shocked but I really liked this guy so I said yes, I liked this guy so much I was like why not? we both like each other. 

After this night I had a weird feeling in my stomach, I have never been asked out like that before. It was so real, plus I was still in the closet about being gay and barley coming out to my family while talking to Rory.  He helped me come out to my family and was there for me when I did, he supported me and cried with me, and gave me a huge hug. My family didn't react to it very well, my brother basically abandoned me and told me I was disgusting and to never call him or me nephew again, this hurt so bad coming from someone i'm so close to. My heart dropped and my anxiety went out of wack, my mental health was down the drain almost non existent. 

A month passed and still no word from my brother, my sisters are also being salty.