Fear

My first love, the guy who helped me come out to my family. I've never felt this deeply in love with someone. My heart keeps putting a wall up because I don't want to get hurt, my heart has been broken many times in my life and this one will hurt like a bitch. Why am I having this fear? The fear of not being good enough. Today my sister came over and we sat at the table and talked for about an hour. I just let her know how I was feeling about my relationship with Rory and about what I want to do with my life. She told me some things just come with age, as I get older the more I will understand. She told me to just live in the moment, why worry about the future? If it's meant to be then it will be and I will do just that.