Crash And Burn

Have you ever loved someone so much that you feel so deeply connected to them? I'm feeling like this right now, it feels so uncertain. A part of me knows it's probably not going to work but my heart is telling me he is the love of my life. I just think it's scary that you can get so close to someone and they could just leave without even second guessing it. My biggest worry right now is myself cheating and him cheating, we have no trust in each-other. He has a good reason not to, I do some pretty fucked up shit to him and he also does some really sketchy stuff, probably not to the extent that I do but it's similar hence the lack of trust we have for each other. Either me and him work on trusting each-other or we call it quits.